27th of oct....

yesterday....
i was enjoying my game whole nite at McD....
suddenly....
my game started lagging....
this is the evident which i dun like the most....
went out to the desktop....
is Chris....
pm me.....
hm....
new character huh?
in my blog....
of course....
but he is not new character anymore in my life....
y???
of course....
there was a story behind me n him....
....
....
thinking bek.....
this evident had passed 3 yrs.....
haizz.....
old lo........
time passes like flying.....
like one minute passed.....
haizzz....
....
Chris....
he is my 1st bf....
in my life....
i can still remember...
i knew him when i was only in studying of form three....
so young rite??
thinking bek...
tat time of me....
like the native gal...
dunno anything...
n juz felt in love of him.....
n becoz of him.....
like white paper of me became black alr......
.....
they said 1st love muz be very sweetly....
but for me....
i dun think so.....
....
until now....
i can still remember how he treated me....
at 1st....
of course very gud n sweet....
but it getting worse during the time passes....
sweet memories.....
sad memories....
now coming to my mind.....
he is the only son for his father....
of course...
he is tat kind of pround guy.....
....
....
finally he ended the relationship wif me when i was going to form five....
i can still remember...
im very very sad....
i had cried whole nite....
now thinking of it...
im so childish...
it is not worth to cry becoz of lost him....
it is juz becoz i havent meet a nice n gud guy yet...
y i will fall in love with him??
oh yea....
i admire him tat....
he is one of the shuffle players...
the style he played....
i liked....the most....
always play in clubs....
with nice clothes n styles....
ah......
....
last month...
he had oso find me...
asking me....
whether im still a single or not....
but i had tricked him....
i said tat im still a single....
but actually im not....
....
yesterday....
i told him everything....
then he juz reacted very angry....
off msn straight away.......
suddenly....
my brain came out a lot of questions.....
y he react like tat?
is he still in care of me???
is he feeling regrets now??
is he wanna me to go bek to his side??
if yes, then how??
wat will be my ending with him next time??
ahx...!
im going to crazy alr.....!
went bek to home...
telling this to my dear.....
n we came out with a lot of conclusions too....
haha.....
.....
today saw him again....
he keep on asking abt me n my dear....
n i juz answered his questions....
with honestly.....
he is tat kind of jealous....
n im oso speechless.....
finally...
dunno wat had happen...
he put his condition as away....
n left me his new hp num....
asking me to sms him....
i dunno wat he wanna do.....
i really dunno...
i oso not really understand wat is his purpose.....
haizz.....
sit down, wait n see lo....
tat's the only way tat can do now.....