Break up.....T.T

go to cinema with him..
thinking of my General Maths....
2molo is the day which the small test will be held....
n now only i know i havent do enough revision yet....
in the cinema...
he blamed me tat im shouting on him....
im juz like scolding him....
he knocked my head....
as like i m the one who did wrong....
went out of the cinema...
he started saying that he dun have the right of coming out opinions...
he said everytime need to hear my decision...
n he couldnt come out decision....
im asking him....
whether he is feeling no freedom anymore when come to this....
but he started use his hp..
and calling his frens....
i said he isnt respect me at all...
keep calling while im talking with him....
but he juz say "yes,mam..."
is it the right time to be joking....?
how can he jokes without look time...?
after he stopped calling...
his frens called again...
n this time im feelling little bit agry alr....
then juz rush to lrt station.....
he jz followed me in slow condition.....
n this had increased my disappointment of him......
then he said...
maybe im the one who keep on waiting to break up....
we always argue with missunderstanding....
n suffering our relationships....
im started thinking....
maybe break up is the best way to solve all this....
i chosed it n did it....
somehow i oso think of maybe i was juz too kind to forgive him times per times....
in my thinking....
if cant control bf's thinking....
meants this is gf's fault...
if the bf found lack of freedom becoz of this...
then juz break up.....
dun have to suffer each other....
now im feeling wanna cry...
becoz it is not easy to say break up to someone...
expecially to ur beloved....
my heart burst alr......
this time is totally finished......
all the clues / phases...
tat always ask the beloved to take our heart...
or i love you....
all r consider imagination....
i couldnt believe anymore....
my life....
started ....
like a drawing....
by using black n white color only.....
for drawing oh my lifes......
nw...
i need a person who can accompany me....
a persn who can lend me his shoudler....
n let me cry as loud as i could.....
T.T..........