6th of nov....

ring ring.....ring ring.....
is my "alarm" again...
ohx......
i hate it so so much....
it is juz like a person....
ask me to wake up....
n start a new day activities.....
but...
my mind isn't as same as the alarm...
my mind is eating by the lazy worms....
by telling myself not to wake up....
juz continue my sleep....
n my heart said....
ppl!
u need rest!
sleep!
haha....
wake up.....
brushed my teeth....
take bath...
washed face...
dry my hair....
suddely....
i feel like...
i dun wan to tie a horse tail anymore....
i wanna to have some changes...
look at it....
n make the decision of...
tied it up in half way....
ok!
i started....
i put some hair oil on it....
then try my best to tie it....
tied it up.....
looking at the mirror....
feeling not nice...
take it down....
tie it up again....
haizzz....
still not ok....
....
....
finally...
i tied it up....
n this time....
is fulfill wat i want...
....
....
but somehow...
i only realised tat...
i had spent half an hour on it....
by again n again....
...
haiz....
take my things...
go to skul....
went in to the tutotrial class....
find a place n sit down...
suddenly i realised tat...
a gal...
wrote sth on the paper...
n passed it around....
but the paper didnt pass to me...
i knew alr.....
it is becoz of me...
abt me....
abt my hair....
haizzz...
watever la...
finished the tutorial class....
find jian them....
they decided wanna go to stalls...
which near the PD block there....
then i followed them....
reached there...
i saw the groups of boys of my tutorial class....
they were looking at me...
i knew tat...
but im juz pretending chit chatting with jian n friends....
who cares....
they giv me a wondering face expressions....
expecially CH, CT them.....
yes....
i had joined a new group....
so wat???
if can choose...
nobody wanna choose to alone....
rite....?
i think so....
went bek to tutorial class....
sit down as usual....
they were looking at me...
wat's so different?
haiya...
i dun care....!
on the way to home...
thinking bek....
yea....
today i had made everything different....
no...
this is juz for them...
this is wat the last time i used to be....
juz recently i changed....
to be cool....
n i found bek myself....
nw im thinking...
wat if....
one day...
i put on same hair style....
wearing a formal shirt...
with skirt...
plus a high hill of shoe....
wat will they react??
honestly...
i oso cant imagine...
becoz tat's totally not me at all....
haha....
now thinking bek....
i knew one thing...
i had grown up....
i becom more mature alr...
not a kid anymore....
n dun have to care wat's other ppl said....
juz be myself.....
tat's the best....
for me....