17th of may...

im so sad for this few days....
a lot of things had happened on me....
i had been crying...
almost every nites.....
now im feeling wanna cry also....
a lot of ppl always said....
gals....
always sad abt money or relationship....
but today im not....
abt relationship....
maybe i can be consider i found a guy....
who will only makes me happy...
every single seconds....
of a day.....
i hope this will never being stopped by anything....
it will least forever.....
.....
.....
im so sad abt my educations now....
i had never feeling regrets....
by choosing the course....
becoz i like it....
i will do my best becoz of it....
i will get a good result....
becoz of it....
but....
today...
at this moment....
i feel like wanna giv up my education....
becoz today only i know...
my mum never agree me....
to take this course....
she never like...
me to take this course....
she wont be forever support me to study this course....
now im feeling so sad...
teardrops...
keep rolling in my eyes....
now im wondering...
wat for i study so hard for it...?
wat for i continue my education by letting my mum to hate me to take this course?
yes..
maybe ppl will think of....
we study jz for our own good...
at least we as ourselves muz be the one who like them...
so we choose them...
but im not...
i feel like i study jz for them...
im forcing myself to study....
.....
....
now....
for me....
im so so dissapointed on this family alr....
i dun like the life im having now....
i hate them....
becoz..
everything tat i had done....
they will never agree ....
n appreciate me.....
they will never say....
u r good...!
they wont....
they only will say sth bad....
on wat i had done....
sometimes i hate myself...
y i will born in such kind of family...
violent...
cold-blooded....
family....
for me....
it is no longer a warm family anymore......!!