13th may...

haizzz....
in holidays so long time alr...
now only open my blog....
i think i wont have more time for my blog any longer...
now sitting down...
helping mum to take care shop...
becoz i know...
i wont have any chance again....
im going to kampar alr...
even through it is a good news...
for me ....
by the begining of university skul life...
even through it is so tough for me....
....
...
abt my family...
it is a normal things tat i quarrel with everyone....
my father as usual..
scolded me....
my mum....
haizzz....
my granma....
haizzz.....
all jz like a 'small gas' kids....
....
....
my relationships...
haizzz..
like a kind of wasting my time....
let me keep waiting n waiting....
made myself wanna giv up alr....
even through i m a stubburn ppl....
i have the thinking of....
maybe i shouldnt start it from the very beginning.....
i dunno wat should i do....
i dunno wheather should wait or not...
i dunno wats inside his thinking...
i dun understand wat actually he wants....
i jz feel like he is playing me...
playing my time.....
but i cant put down....
seriously...
i never put down every single ex bf oso...
becoz im stubburn....
even through i know there wont hav the chance to....
be together again...
but i really...
never put down....
now in front of me....
this guy....
making me had to decrease the confident on him alr....
day per day......
i lost the confident....
i lost the brave....
lost the trust.....
on him...
but i dunno should i turn him down or not...
there are a lots of problems..
had been happened....
between me n him....
looking his friendster...
oso dunno wat is he thinking....
sometimes cold...
sometimes hot...
like tat...
haizzz....
i hate the life im having now....
T.T....